what can i say? what can i do? im so fucking piss off to the max that i can do everything to destroy myself. what i say wasn't right. although it was rite, YOU DUN CARE. ALRIGHT YOU DUN CARE. AND IM OVER HERE SO FKING PISS OFF AND FKING CARE ABOUT WHAT IS FKING HAPPENING AND THIS IS FKING IRRITATING. everything happen agn and agn, im sick and tired. sick and tired of everything that keep on happening agn and agn. you knew everything. you knew how would i react. you knew that im sensitive. you knew it all you knew i cant take this. but why? why it keep on happening. i seriously started to be more and more afraid that one day when i wake up and you wasnt here anymore. i was so scare that history will happen agn. im really really afraid. i cant feel secure myself. i cant. i kept on telling myself you wont leave. yes you wont. that is also what i told myself that time. and you leaved me 3 times. hanging over there 3 times. how afraid i am. and i was hoping you wont say the word "leave" at that point of time. i was only wishing that you could stay as a friend. but end up what happen? you said it all out. i tried my best to stay you by my side over and over agn when i know im alr breaking apart. im dying inside. im just killing myself by doing that. but i just wont gv up on letting you stay. and when i was doing all this. you over there adding salt into my wound and tearing my scar wider. saying ppl cheered you up and all sort of stuffs. at that point i was wondering how heartless can you be.. and you told me you wanna leave the next day. what have i done wrong? i really hate it that she can be there when im not. YOU ARE WILLING TO GO TO HER LET HER SEE YOUR FACE AND THERE YOU ARE PUSHING ME AWAY..and you can say that you love me. THIS IS JUST SO UNFAIR..how unfair can this world be? i kept everything to myself. i kept it all to myself. when i alr know i couldn't take it. i cant even cry in front of my friends. im afraid they will be worrying about me. when we got back together,you called me stop crying. it wont happen agn. but what happen rite now? agn it happen. and it got worst this time..yes you rejected. but there is still evidence, eye witness.. you can explain, you can say everything you have done was a misunderstanding.. but what would everyone thinks? i can believe you i can trust you. i can. but will anyone who alr love someone and another with stead doing that in public? you can im too sensitive or what. she even dare you to tell me what has happened. and you hide it from me for days..im happy that you told me about it.. but i just cant accept the facts. you told me you dun care about her feelings. you dun care what she is doing, she is saying, everything about her. but have you realize she have alr gotten your attention? you can say about her everywhere you go. she can even call you anytime. as a friend.. remember that day we are skyping? you told me your books is with her.. and i was thinking yea, maybe as friends. when she called you while we are skyping, you was laughing so happily? im just so jealous and dying inside. you have nvr done that when we are on phone..the next day you say agn your other books is with her.. what is this?..and then you told me you both do those stuffs and she dun wan you to tell me that time, you really really hurt me hard.. you are just taking a knife and stab into my heart..im really really just so afraid.. i have no idea what can i do.. now you can tell her everything about you. saying what she has told you in front of everyone. when everyone dk who is that but i know. i know who are you saying. when i told them about it, they know exactly know how i feel. they know about her feelings too. and yet all you said was, you dun care.. dun care?.. are you kidding me? im so so so so afraid that i will lose you agn. i felt so unprotected. i cant take what will happen next.. am i gonna gv in what is mine agn? i have to gv in to see a happy face? like how it was used to be? gv in everything i have to make everyone happy? will i have to let go of someone agn? will someone leave agn? im feeling so unimportant agn. and i hate to feel this way..why? why all this always happen? what have i done wrong? or am i just so useless that everyone dw me anymore? can someone tell me what have i done? i just can stop the fear of losing someone like how i lose them last year.. am i that annoying? im useless in your life? you dw me anymore? becos someone took over my place? someone can cheer you up better and i cant? is it? you wan me to leave alr me because you are sick and tired of me? im really really cant afford to hear all this.. im so afriad that one day you will come to me and say all those stuffs. afraid that one day you will say you have alr forgotten me, forgotten everything we have, forgotten what i have done for you.. idw everything to turn into ashes..im really really afriad. and i have to idea what can i do or say anymore. i really really dk. maybe, maybe.. im just too sensitive. or maybe things just be better when it comes to me..