so long since i come back. actually i wanted to post starting of this year. but you know what? it keep having problems and hmm. wanted to update everyday but life is somehow boring due to N level. Hais. went back to primary school today. teacher never change and saw only a few familiar faces. everyone didn't go back anymore. and its not like as crazy as how we used to be. sometimes really wish that we can turn back times. they are just so wonderful yet hurtful. but if you think carefully of it, they are just stupid little jokes. because we are just so childish at that time. time pass so fast and in a blink of eye we grew so much and we have changed a lot. and soon enough we will be working :o i feel it weird when i saw you.. it cant be explained. it just feel so weird and i have no idea what kind of feeling is it. and comment sense you wont feel the same of cos. it just so so so weird! well, just let it be. you guys know what? my primary school teachers are still the same. they are just so cute. And primary school friends are still that funny. somehow cant stop laughing at their stupid jokes. primary school changed alot ._. and they are changing soon agn. i guess school will be much more nicer next year. A lot shit happen this year and it really sux. and im seriously break apart.. i gotten a new job at esplanade during June holliday ^^ working is fine? somehow? i really wanna say that i enjoy it but i hate those people over there? especially the fay ass! he is just so freaking annoying and what he do is just god dam irritating. the guy who i like? yea like as a friend. i just somehow started to dislike him in someways alr. you guys know what? i really cant stand it you know? he is just.. so flirt? he can tell my uncle that he have alr gotten a new gf and he know her from some online chat or web? he got the guts to stare at me while working! DAFUG?! hello, didnt say you gotten a gf and yet you still stare at other girls while your stead is not with you? what a guy that flirts.. should i say i pity your gf or should i say you should make up your mind? like seriously.. i cant stand this kind of guy sia. okay, give up on work place. relationship.. should i say this is good or what? it just makes me feel suxy. quarreling. fighting and stuffs. i seriously got enough of all this bull shit. or should i say because its the wrong person? like what my teacher say. because girls are way too sensitive. look at us. it is like totally madness.. you are as sensitive as a girl. head as stubborn as a boy. what the heck should i do? i really wish you have a freaking girl mindset and have a boy heart? because im somehow really tired of your sensitive? its just way too fking strong and its killing me. i believe that to me i maybe just hiding behind you rite now. because i dun think this is what i wan sometimes. sometimes i really wonder have i had enough. when am i leaving? im really thinking of this question so badly. because im not ready to go back to guys i guys? because they are just way too bastard sometimes. they are just so sweet and caring at times and it feel really good. i learn alot from this relationship because it different and you get to know how you yourself are that ma fan? girls are just so ma fan at times which make guys cant stand. in this relationship i cant just think of a gf i have to think of a bf too and its tiring at times. i really feel like running away from it. because i cant really stand. maybe because when i look at him i think of those things and i got that feeling? but do you know that it somehow hurts alot. someone who used to be so god dam nice to you and always be there by your side now is gone and have alr become others? when you think of it it is just so hurtful. when you are famous they are not. when you are not famous they are just so god dam hell famous. its funny isnt it? hmm. yea, i wish i can turn back time because at those times im really happy. now im just so tired? idk why. maybe because im tired of repeating myself. tired of expressing myself. tired to tell others what i wan. tired of saying so much. i just want someone who understand me. know what i want. know what im thinking. give me things without me asking. telling me stuffs or doing stuffs that i dun need to ask..im just somehow tired.