Friday, April 15, 2011 Y 5:57 PM

hais,today also rain -.-

why keep on raining de? -.-

just came back home..

hais,dk dear now at where..

sms him,he nvr repy.

call him, cannot call through..

idk la..

i muscle cramp sia..

now very hungry ><

Thursday, April 14, 2011 Y 5:34 PM

meow, i'm back ><

so sian :<

the pw hor,i dun feel like doing sia :<

bo bian..

so tired sia :<

today rain until very heavily sia..

all thx to agnes i then can come back :>

omg,so sian sia!!!!!!!!

wan die le :<

omg,today PE my pull up i can do until 13 sia..

first time bodoh!!

i shock sia..

Wednesday, April 13, 2011 Y 4:37 PM

i knew it,

everytime i wasnt happy,

he would not be there for me..

i'm tired of those fking quarreling with my father -.-

dam him la..

PCB,never make until him come scold me..

you think i wan quarrel with you arh?!

ma de,you are my father so?

big fk is it?!

keep on believing god saying wad,

going other people house then

ppl's things kanna steal then need go jail..

you wan play with me then i pay with you lorh..

is you ask me who wan go jail one lea..

i go jail la,you think i scare arh?!

keep on jail jail -.-

you so believe god,

go die and then go find your god la -.-

Keep on telling me this and that.

wad you say is for my own good?!

i believe you then got ghost lea -.-

you dun even fking know wad i wan bodoh..

is my choice..

not urs -.-

you know wad i wan then say la,pcb.

you say you is my father,have you ever treat me as your daughter?!

No.you didnt!!

you only treat my cousin sister as you daughter!!

you treat her the best,

always tok to her nicely,

then me lea?!

come not even fking tok to me..

wad you call me to do is to do those things i dun like,

scold me for nth.

shout at me when i tok to you nicely -.-

you said you had enough of me,

then you think i dun have enough of you?!

Ma De,you like my cousin sister so much,

go call her be your daughter la,

wan me this daughter for wad?!

ppl's laptop screen spoil,

then you wan help ppl repair,

ppl going to buy new laptop le,

still need your screen repair meh?!

you think you got alot of money arh?!

everytime call you buy things no money,

ppl didnt call you buy for her,

then you got alot of money!!

ppl wan go out also dun let..

ownself go out then can.

wad fking reason is this?!

Wad i cannot make friend with gangster,

then you ownself lea?!

also go make friends with those ppl ma -.-

eh,pls la.

wad you can do i cannot do?!

you dun even treat me as your daughter norh -.-

you know i'm worst than a maid bodoh -.-

always trap at home,

anywhere also cannot go..

stay at home nth to do,

then you catch me and scold for nth -.-

ma de,i rather go out the whole day and dun see until your face -.-

always scold me for wad i do..

then you got think before wad you do anot?!

you got not happy with wad you have do anot?!

of cos no rite?!

scold yourself before scolding me la..

pls la,wad you are scold me is wad you have done before one norh -.-

not happy then dun come home la..

you wan come home then dw see my face then

call me go out la..

you think i wan stay at home and see your face arh?! -.-

you dun think you are my father then can control me la -'-

i had enough le hor!!

i dun have you this kind of father ever since the day i was born!!

i not your daughter..

Monday, April 11, 2011 Y 9:04 PM

i seems that a sense of losing my dear is coming closer..

i got a bad feeling that sometime is gonna happen to him soon..

wad i dw to be happen seems going to happen soon..

the more i think,the more worry..

but i cant dun think about it becos,

something is telling me,he is going soon..

i really dk wad to do..

i got the feeling from saturday onwards,

i just didnt tell him..

i cried about it infront of you -.-

you asked me wad happen to me,

you called me to tell you about,

but i didnt..and still ask me those unhappy question..

i hate it when you ask me those question,

cos i'm afraid to lose you.

i once told you that,

if you are dead,

i will die together with you..

i really dw to be left alone in this world,

with hurt,crying everyday,

thinking you and cant see you everyday..

i hate that kind of life..

i really dw to lose you agn..

you will cheer me up everytime you know i was crying..

no matter how hard you try,

i couldnt stop crying,

but you always dosent gv up,

you keep trying until i'm willing to gv you a smile.

you always protect me from being bully..

always tried not to be angry with me when i done wrong things..

always gv me wad i wanted..

keeping all promise between me and you..

i have fail everything..

that is why i cant laugh happily infront of you..

have you ever think why?

i owe you alot..

the more you treat me good,

the more i wanted to repay you..

you have done lot and all the best things for me..

i really dk how to make it up for you..

now i'm worrying you here..

my heart is telling me,

something bad gonna happen to you..

i really scare that will happen..

Y 6:28 PM

omg,i felt so xia suai on Saturday afternoon sia :<

but hor i felt so funny :x

saturday went to find dear dear ma,

then hor he in his room ma.

house door also open lea ._.

so i shout in lorh

and how would i know is his sister were at home..

i shouted to shout he cant even hear me lea ._.

end up is his sister come out and open the door sia..

but hor,

i say to her,sorry,i not calling you..

then his sister ask who i shouting at..

then i say my dear dear..

then she go shout at him sia ._.

then he was like so moody sia..

but you know wat?

i found it funny sia ._.

i told agnes about it and she laugh like wad sia ><

really dam funny one norh..

today class very boring..

i tell you i can fall asleep one norh..

Saturday, April 9, 2011 Y 8:50 PM

omgfzxc -.-

wad happen yesterday was a misunderstanding..

i cried the whole nite about wad he had said to me..

eyes got swollen in the morning :<

i'm damn mood when i go to his house and find him..

on the way i'm wondering i wan to go in anot..

but once i reached his house outside,

i saw his father..

no choice i have to go in..

i didn't go for English class man -.-

then i go for math lesson only for few minutes?._.

after that go meiling's house then go back his house agn..

then go home awhile go out again -.-

then go his house.. lawl..

damn funny arh,

he asked me how i got his photo ><

hahahahaha,i'm so pro ^^

foreva dw tell you where i got your photo from..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..

damn funny one is hor,

i take his lollipop and eat then hor,

i eat until half way,

the lollipop drop off from the stick..

then i pull out only got stick..

then he shock sia..

laugh die me..

then he watch tv i go put back

then it came out lollipop and the stick..

then he shock sia..

i laugh like mad sia..

Although cried the hole day,

i know that you will always be there for me..

silence is a girls biggest cry..

i agree with that..

i ignore my dear dear almost the whole day..

cos i'm crying..

the 2nd time is was in your house,

you asked me wad will i do if you died.

i started to kept quite.

i bear with my feelings..

trying not to cry infront of you..

but,i'm not strong enough..

i cried all out..

kept quiet when you call me to tell you wad i'm thinking..

i hate you asking me those question,

you should know very well,

i dun wan those things happen.

i hate it when you asked those question,

i will think until how painful i will be once you are gone..

Friday, April 8, 2011 Y 2:59 PM

have you lie enough to me?

telling me the number is your friend's?

you lend phone from your friends?

wad a lie..

how stupid am i..

trying to believe you when i know it was a lie..

trust you with all my heart..

wad i get back was a lie?

you once said that i with you was just like

i am very unhappy and tired..

you was rite.

i was unhappy be cos you wasn't the old you

i'm tired of those quarreling between you and my sisters..

has you ever think about me when you quarrel with my friends?

you said that in my hearts my friends and my gans was in the first place.

i cant really agree with that.

cos no one has ever replace you in my heart.

wad make you think that way is becos,

when you and my sister quarrel i always side on my sister.

but have you ever think before who is in the wrong?

i always make a fair decision.

maybe to you was unfair..

you wanna know why i cried yesterday nite?

i just only can tell you,

i cried becos you has nvr think how the problems being sloved..

you has nvr ever know how many tears i have wasted on those quarrel..

acting happy infront of everyone when i'm not..

trying to control those tears that are gonna to roll down..

crying in the dark without anyone knowing..

trying to sound as if i'm ok when you called me..

keep all unhappy things to myself and not to everyone..

trying to tell myself that all those unhappy times will past..

but i know it wount..

trying to look at the good side when i know it wount happen..

trying to do lots of things to cheer myself up,

but when everything has ended,

happy times is coming,

the fight started again..

you are not tired of those fighting,but i am tired of those quarreling..

i'm really really tired of all those lies that has made..

i dun even know how to trust you..

Thursday, April 7, 2011 Y 10:55 PM

dear,you trying to call me tell you,

wad is your position in my heart..

i cant really tell you that..

cos to you, you are not in that position..

you no need to tell me sry,

cos you are not in the wrong..

i am the one who is in the wrong.

Eventhough your words hurt me alot,

i cried about it, i know wad i am doing..

to you,my sisters all that are more important to me,

yea, you are rite..but you have nvr think about it..

when you and my sisters got problem,

i'm in the middle getting tourchered.

i didnt cried about it, i just wanna you all not to fight.

maybe you just dun get wad i mean.

maybe i say it in a different way.

it is not your fault..

seriously, from young to now,

sry to me is really no cure..

i tried to bear my temper when i'm going to be angry.

i tried to be happy when everyone is fighting..

feaking a smile infront of everyone,

but crying in the dark..

no ones know about it..

i'm really getting tired of this..

Wednesday, April 6, 2011 Y 5:38 PM

sry for not posting for a very long time ><

i'm addicted to BS -.-

ok,lets no say about that first..

i cried during yesterday nite while toking on the phone with dear :<

he didn't know about it..

cos i didnt let him know..

hais..

he now also not happy..

he is not in mood, and he keep scolding bad words.. o.O

i very guai le hor..

i cut down on scolding bad words le..

today i very tired lea :<

Mt class the peanut cher dam stupid..

peanut cher: now ppl like to say KP,wad is that arh?

me: kao pei

peanut cher: no,it is not that

patrick: is la -.-

peanut cher: then people fight also call KP?

me: is PK la -.-

peanut cher: is KP wad?

me: is PK la..

peanut cher: is meh?

me: nonono,is peanut.

patrick: is PK la-.-

then english class dam boring one norh..

me, agnes and kean zhu keep saying about the BS.

then recess..

after recess, ICT.

mr mak tok like wad sia..

i wan laugh then cannot laugh cos i dun dare ><

see i so guai..

then patrick at there keep laughing..

then agnes keep cover her mouth..

they both hor..

i see until they laugh i almost laugh out sia..

cos i bearing the laughing -.-

then he tok half way..

hidaya: -accidentally make until computer mouse drop-

everyone: OHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

khairuddin: eh cat, got mouse lea

everyone: -look at me-

agnes, khairuddin & patrick: hahahahahahahahahahahaha..

me: -look down & laugh-

laugh die me la..

anyhow la..

then geo-graphy lesson teacher make until i dam sleepy..

then history, teacher make me wanna fall asleep man..

she go show the video..

then i end up go sleep..

so tired sia..

then miss wee come in i also dk..

until agnes accidentally make until me..

then she lie on my lap then we two at there sleep..

then the class call me to wake up -.-

then assembly,sooo boring -.-

after that go jp ><

i very pro lea..

jking ><

Friday, April 1, 2011 Y 8:15 PM

just came back from jurong point.

just called my dear..

i felt

so upset..

why i can only see him from my house?

why i cant see him face to face?

why is my life like that?

god, can you stop bullying me?

i hate this kind of life..

i once said and promise my kor that

once i found him,i will make all up for him,

not to let him upset,angry and felt lonely..

but i didn't done one of them..

i felt myself so useless..

now end up one week only can see him once..

wad the hell am i up to?

i feel like i'm tourchering him..

Y 3:56 PM

i'm back for blogging..

i going out soon..

ltr at nite then play BS with agnes.

raushan is my daddy :D

cos he tiger,i cat ma..

agnes my cousin cos..

she rabbit..

school now quiet fun la :D

cos our class become zoo..

sad for imbapoler, he just found out rachel's thingy..

and now she is gone..

it was just like wad has happen to me 4years + ago..

but i found my dear back..

and i will nvr eva leave him..

i'm foreva his until the day i die..

i will nvr leave him agn..

feel like crying sia..

i seem that i didnt see him for 2 years..

but it is just 2 weeks..

i miss those time he fetch me to school.

he wait for me outside my school gate for me.

bring me back home..

sitting on his bike.

to me,it was just like he suddenly disappear like 4 yrs ago..

but i know it wasnt..

i really really miss him like hell..

i just has to wait for 16.30hrs to see until him..

sad for me lorh..

That Girl♥

Name:xiiaoBe
birthday:10.10.97
School:BLSS
Age:19
Love me without fear.
Trust me without wondering.
Love me without restrictions.
Want me without demands.
Accept me for who I am :)
i'm a girl that is 171cm tall
I'm just a girl that has changed and love to make friends with everyone.
i'm irritating at sometimes but u can bear with me then fk off (:
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i'm a fan of b2st,they rocks ttm! if you dun like them,pls fk off from my blog cos i dun welcome you here.
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1)waiting for you to come sg♥
2)have a better life
3)Earn more $$$
4)get into the place i wan
5)~~find until jobs~~
6)~~enjoy my holidays~~
7)have more new friends
8)~~stop history from repeating~~
9)meet up my bitches soon
10)let no one step out of my life agn.
11)no backstabber in my life.
12)everyday got jokes
13)~~i wanna have my family outing agn..~~

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autum(christina),BFF,lao gong
dark,friend
jason,gan kor
chen wei,maple di
jessy,maple jie,gan jie
jian cheng,mei fu,close friend
stanley,kor ^-^
ribbon,BFF,twins
Ross,close friend 0.0
Soul,close friend ><
celine koh, stead♥♥♥

MPLE PRIVATE SEVER^^

iJASONx3,GP
genhex,kor
iArena,kor
stuhannelee,di
xspacex,er zi
x3iBabyJie,kor
XiaoHero/XiaoLepPer,kor
jaffar,kor
YourMumFly,kor
kisame,di
omgitsrick,er zi
ccookiiee,jie
iTINAx3,jie
sentosa,xi fu
Avaricious,Ah Ma
toopid,mummy
Niib,mei
Shootuebutt,di
Tiifany,close friend
Windx3,close friend
Rampage,kor

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♥♥♥
wendy,gan jie
pearlyn,gan jie
lynette,gan mei
li min,gan mei
meiling,friend
hazel,gan jie,sister,lao gong,tuition mate♥
wanjing,best friend,sister,tution mate♥
wan yi,close friend,sister♥
hebe,friend
sok hoon,sister,gan jie
wen ting,friend
kai xin,sister,close friend
agnes,gan jie,sister,rabbit,close friend♥
wanyi,best friend,sister♥
doris,gan jie,sister♥
christine,gan mummy,sister,close friend
lu ying,gan jie,sister
sarah chua,gan jie,sister
sarah tan,black dog,sister
jamie,friend
g hui min,friend
choo wei lin,gan jie
cek ning,friend
zhi yu,friend
wen ya,gan jie,sister
pei shi,gan mei
nuttiluk,gan mei
Macabelle,firend
ye xin,gan jie,Avatar,close friend
isnina,gan jie

★★★
kevin lam,gan kor,brother,under wear
kevin lee,friend
danial,BEST gan kor,da nui,brother
effendy,gan kor
cheng xuan,gan kor,monkey
han lun,gan kor
valent,gan kor,valentai day
nicholas,gan di
mah chi leong,close friend,joker,ma chi long
poh teck,gan daddy,brother
ken lee,friend,brother,auntie lucy
ken NG,firend
zhong jun,friend,brother
yao huang,gan kor,brother,yellow medician
shi jie,gan kor,brother,act freanch kia
lin jia xin,friend
sin kai,gan kor,brother
tenggui,2nd gan daddy,teddy bear
choon wee,gan kor,brother
choon wei,friend,brother
yong yuan,friend,brother
shih gee,friend,gee la
goh jun hui,friend
calvin leong,gan kor,banboo stick,close friend
lee jun wei,percious gan di
eddy,bei ji xiong,dog
patrick,gan di,brother
raytheon,friend,ji dong
zhi wei,friend,monk
chun hao,friend
jian yuan,friend
hao yang,friend
wee keat,gan son,alien head

BLSS

1NA2

CLARA, friend,sister
JUGWINDER,friend,sister
MING YING,friend,sister,CB ying
LIN YING,friend,sister
SWRNA,friend
JIA QI,ah ma,sister
LIYANA,sister,friend
HIDAYAH,sister,friend
YU XUAN,sister,friend,gan jie
SHARENY,firend
SHARIFFAH,friend
NURMAISARAH,friend
su,friend,sister,gan jie
THASHAINI,friend,sister
joey,friend,sister,gan mei
AHMAD,friend
AZMIRUL,brother,gan kor,friend
BRENDON,friend
FADHLAN,friend
GENG HONG,friend,brother,bird bird,gan kor,dog
WEI XIANG,friend
IVAN,friend
FIRDAUS,gan kor,brother,alien,ah aus
SHAREZZA,friend
JUN ERN,gan kor,brother
JIA CHING,friend
KAI SHENG,gan kor,short monster,brother
KEAN ZHU,friend, pumpkin zhu,fat lala
ZHONG YING,friend,housefly
ALFIAN,friend
SABRI,gan kor,brother,sa bi gou,kola bear
JING WANG,friend
ZI ZHAO,friend
TIMOTHY,friend
Antonio,friend,ants
kar ming,gan kor,karming airong bieber,brother,coming

2NA3(zoo♥)

Yi Xuan,babu,friend,joker
Khairuddin,friend,panda
raushan,daddy,tiger :D
andy,xiao bai,kor,brother
Saiyidah,friend
wairen,friend
charissa,sister,friend
anna,sister,friend
ali,alibaba,friend
chinkeong,friend
yao jie,friend

3NA3~ & 4NA3

Sarimah,friend
Manickam,friend
Gayathri,friend :D
Adrian,friend,xiao bai 1
Waznah,friend
chee xian,friend
solihin,friend,babe
zhi qin,friend
Ahmad Syazrie,friend,betie
Thanush,friend
mervin,friend,xiao bai 2
shi ting,friend,sister
aman,friend
khrl,friend

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suping
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