seriously,i dam upset.. patrick told me that xiaohei say that, he say he dk me.. is he really forgotten me or angry with me? i just wanna know the ans.. i slot a message into his house.. i wonder will he sms me anot.. maybe not..cos i think he wount forgv me.. let see will he forgv me anot.. if he dosent wanna forgv me, it is time to gv up.. i know i'm wasting my time finding him.. i shall stop borthering ppl.. wad has happen already has happen.. i cant change wad has happen.. just let it be.. if heaven wants me to be gans back with him, he will forgv me and sms me de.. just let it be wad it is surpose to be.. if he cant forgive me,i shall forget him..
Thursday, January 27, 2011 Y 4:33 PM
now all lesson i found it boring.. after self-study i went to jp with yi xuan they all.. and we went to mac outside there.. ppl always at there smoke one.. i saw him..i saw xiaohei.. agnes say at first he was very angry.. i also wad he was angry at.. then after that i look at him.. he looked back at me.. we have eye contact awhile and i turn away.. i was so afraid of him.. but when i look back at him agn.. his face totally changed.. he like very sad like that :( he last time wasnt like that one.. last time he use to be very happy.. but why,he now become so emo.. then yixuan and karming keep telling me xiaohei.. then he was like keep looking at my here.. got one time yi xuan go make fun of me.. then i chase him then he shout very loud "xiaohei" i stun for awhile and beat him softly.. 2nd time,karming shouted "xiaohei,u see airong lea,xiaohei!!" i dun know anything ma.. but agnes saw that,when karming shout my name he straight away turn back and look at us.. i felt myself so useless.. then we go mac with them.. they keep laughing and saying those funny thing.. and no one realize that i'm emoing at there.. only agnes know that i'm upset and emoing there.. i almost cried out when i'm in mac..
Wednesday, January 26, 2011 Y 8:06 PM
only a fews day only.. so many things happen.. i couldnt expect it.. i was once a happy girl 4 yrs ago.. but since he left me,i become emo.. saturday..i met up with wanyi.. i hv called zhiwei to come down but he dw.. he say he wanna play with his computer games -.- then we go ourself.. we dk which one his house.. then keep calling him -.- then his father got tatoo one sia D; so scary.. wanyi dam brave.. she go up straight away and tok to his father :DD she ask is him at home,but he is not at home.. his father was dam curious of everything.. keep asking why find him.. wan yi tell him that i wanna apologize to him then he keep on asking who is that girl :o then end up i go up and tok to his father :P his father dam friendly norh keep smiling with me >< then sunday i wrote a letter and put into his mailbox.. i dun know he got saw my letter anot :o cos he bo message or call me :( but i know that he yesterday is outside my sch.. i know he was outside.. my feelings told me that he is outside.. but when it rains,he go other place le :( i was totally cannot take it and when to ask yi xuan.. today i told him everything.. he promise that he will help me find his number :DD he is so kind and friendly :DD if he really found xiaohei's number out for me, i will nvr forget him as my friend :DD
Friday, January 21, 2011 Y 5:48 PM
u see my hand like wad sia..o.o
like allergic sia..
i also dk wad happen sia ._.
these fews days got alot of things happening la..
fight here fight there
gang wait ppl outside sch..
blah blah blah..
teacher call parents..
friend go GO to find teacher..
then i still finding him like hell
like wad i hv did for 4yrs..
tmr meeting wanyi :DD
cya,bye..
Tuesday, January 18, 2011 Y 6:05 PM
i really cant believe that i saw him today outside my sch.. let me tell u wad happen first.. today got one fat boy like jing wang size one lurh go push yi xuan when he wanted to walk.. then yi xuan very not happy ma.. then everyone go on top and find that fat boy.. then the fat keep laughing as if very funny like that then yi xuan keep scolding ccb == then i go tell him stop repeating it lurh.. then he hor go take the fire extinguisher then go in shout at the boy say U BELIEVE I USE THIS AND HIT U HEAD MA?! i was like WTF?! then blah blah blah.. then after sch we go find him at that time he then say sry == fker,waste our time -'- eariler say then wount hv problem le wad..-'- like wad sia!!!== then he ans the phone dam funny.. he say wad,the guy 2 times taller then me lea.. then me and agnes keep saying wad 4 times of his size then blah blah..laugh die.. after that my mood like totally swang.. i sawed him outside the sch!!! his voice,i heard his voice.. and i sawed his face.. he has nvr changed.. he was still so kind and friendly to others.. i can see that from his face.. i wanted to tell him i was sry for wad i hv did.. i know i hv alot of chance and only in 2 ways.. but it is hard.. i wanted to try :o i know i will get asked lots of question D; hais...i still remember wad has happen 4yrs ago.. 4yrs,i remeber everything.. i has nvr forget wad has happen.. we met at play ground.. that time idk u is ask me for wad.. and i fell down..=-= dam paiseh one norh.. then hurt until my back.. dam freaking pain one.. then he come ask me am i ok.. after i stopped crying, he asked everyone who wants to be his gans.. then i agreed to be.. from that day onwards, my life changed.. he called me every single nites.. i still can remeber got one nite, he was really really sad.. i bet he was sitting at his kitchen's window.. he called me, telling me i was his best sister.. and called me not to break gans with him.. and i promised him.. i cant believe i broke the promise..T.T i'm really really sry.. i promised him then, dk wad day.. he held a party..o.o he was so caring sia.. he buy the bomb dk wad thing then the stupid zhi wei throw to my leg there!!:@ then it explode.. and burst beside my leg nia.. then dk say until where, i think until my grandmother and i started to cry.. i started crying badly.. he saw me crying and he call me go aside.. everyone is curious and they started to come over.. he call them o go away.. and he toked to me.. i remeber at that time i didnt think much.. i cried sso badly that i cant even stop crying.. he asked me wad happen.. i told him everything.. and he call me close my eyes.. and he holded my hands.. and started praying.. after that,he call me stop crying.. cos thats the facts.. then we started playing.. he climbed dam tall..o.o i cant reach him sia.. he teached me how to climd up..o.o i still cant,cos too high le.. then i tio catch by the stupid zhi wei :@ he know i dk how climb ma, he changed the game :DD he toking to other ppl that time, i catched him by tapping his legs :x he look down then found out he got caught.. he go catch back zhi wei.. cos he catched me..haha.. then play until abit everyone started to get bored.. so we tok here tok there somemore raining sia.. we go into the big shelter.. everyone started playing water..o.o then everywhere wet wet.. then i that time very active one ma.. i go take his bike and ride.. then when near the drain, i was trying to turn, i fall down with his bike.. he saw and came up to me.. he call me leave it there.. he say he will clean it ltr.. so i leave it there.. then we go in shelter.. they took lots of things that can fill water de.. then i stand there ma.. call come pour me sia.. then i snatch the bottle and pour back them.. then he go clean his bike ma.. when he didnt notice, i go pour him >< he shock sia.. :x he jumped up.. cos he cleaning his bike.. he put his bike there, then he run :DD i go chase him then pour him until he all wet wet then he call me stop cos ltr his phone will spoil.. that day rox man.. but i know,it will nvr happen agn.. cos that time i stead with him, someone told me bad things about him.. and i hang up his phone.. at playground i didnt took up the call becos my mother call me go back home.. and from that day onwards,everything changed.. we become strangers.. D; i dun even know,when could we be gans back agn..T.T i'm really really sry for wad i hv did..
Sunday, January 16, 2011 Y 11:33 AM
i cant believe that i cant even hang on a day..D; boy,wad u say it correct but i didnt tell you.. i feel like i am torching myself.. YEA U ARE RITE.. i wanted you..im' not strong enough to tell u i got hurted by u deeply.. becos of u and her D; no use faking a smile man.. i cant even face u with a smiling face.. i will end up crying infront of u.. i regreat everthing i hv done.. :( i feel like saying out everything infront of u.. T.T but i cant say it out.. D; cos i'm so scare u will hurt me deeply agn D;
Saturday, January 15, 2011 Y 2:36 PM
i love you,u love me.. so wad? i care about ur feelings.. but u dun even hackcare about my feelings at all u was so close with rachel.. wad i saw is u and rachel.. u stead with rachel better.. no point saying you love me and didnt even show it out.. sry,i dun wanna be a fool anymore.. i hv enough,boy.. i am very tired of this relationship.. i dun wanna jealouse of u two anymore.. i know u will just say u and her has nth.. if it was a human will say it wasnt nth surely hv something..u will be mad at me.. so wad? it is wad u hv show it to me.. wasnt i say it out myself.. u like her post.. wad she post u also like.. u post wad she also like.. wad she posted on ur wall is seriously hurted me alot.. i know u both is the best couple in the world!! sorry,i really dw to play with you!! I'M NOT FOOL,BOY!!! i just feel like a 3rd party between you two.. i feel like killing you.. i feel like killing myself more!! i already knew it would happen.. and i didnt expect it happen so fast.. i didnt know that u would betray me.. u once said i dun trust u at all.. but wad has happen to ur fb wall huh?! SERIOUSLY U MAKED ME HATED YOU!!!! I SHOULD HV HURTED U DEEPLY BEFORE U HURTED ME!! U IS EVEN B@STARD THAN MY EX U KNOW?! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!U THIS B@STARD!!! I WILL REMEBER WAD U HV DID TO ME.. I WILL TAKE REVENAGE ONE DAY!!! TRUST ME..U WILL GET BACK WAD U HV DONE TO ME!! I AM MORE EVIL THAN U THINK!!! I WOULD NVR FORGIVE YOU.. I WILL LET U SUFFER!!!!!
Y 11:24 AM
FB hving war sia..wtfreak.. the yi xuan hor got go for camp lorh still act until like that.. say wad nvr go camp.. yesterday see until patrick laugh i already know they are acting le norh..
Friday, January 14, 2011 Y 2:51 PM
letting you go is the best way? letting you go it is just hurting myself.. letting you go and find a new girl is the best for you.. so,bye bye my dear..
Y 2:30 PM
boy,seriously i'm tired of wad has happen these few days.. can stop it? i'm very tired.. stop all those quarreling.. stop those arguing.. stop those fighting.. i'm really really tired of it.. i wan stop all those crying..
Wednesday, January 12, 2011 Y 4:40 PM
today dam fun siol... they got camp then hor we play with them :x then yi xuan dam freaking funny one norh.. he keep making us laugh.. at first do the hungry cheer: hungry,hungry very,very hungry,very very,hungry ji-ka-la-pa-pi-ya-pi-ya ji-ka-la-ka-pi-ya-pi-ya sah(clap x3) sah(clap x3) sah,sah,sah si sua sua si sua sua si sua sua then must act cute ma.. then the trainers do sia.. i at the back keep saying act cute then agnes keep laughing then sha sha sha then is makan ma.. beng yam go shout SO LAME!!! everyone look at him sia..so funny we keep laughing like mad.. then play the hold the person's hand infront of u de.. then at first is small group ma.. quiet easy la.. then 2-3 together like mad sia.. at first i hold patrick and sabri's hand ma.. then very swizz.. then i like mad woman keep shouting me:OI STOP MOVING!!!!!!! me:OR ESLE EVERYONE IS GONNA FALL DOWN!!! then the guys infront of me one keep laughing.. then all go out then 2nd time dam freaking funny.. i hold back the same person hands yu xuan:-ran out- then i inside like wad sia == sabri:where is yu xuan? then i turn back saw yi xuan and yu xuan holding hands ma.. then not stuck ma,so shiok sia them.. me:eh,yu xuan gv me place,i wan go out.. teacher and trainer:-walk to other place- me:-let go of everyone's hands- yu xuan:-let go of yi xuan's hands- me:-go hold both of their hands- teacher:-saw then face turn black- patrick:where is ai rong? yi xuan:ai rong is here.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! andy:wa,cheat sia.. me:andy,wan come ma? andy:cannot la,the teacher will not happy.. then blah blah.. then group 5 on the right group 6 on the left.. me,yu xuan & andy at group 5 we like mad sia.. we play play then got one part dam funny.. patrick:oi,andy dun cheat le andy:wad sia? then someone saw who is infront le ma then they saw andy is sitting behind ma.. me:oi,andy go sit infront arh.. andy:-say softly-or i go sit infront then u shout my name la.. cos they know it cant be one wad.. me:ok andy:-go infront- then we win sia >< hahahahahahahahahaha..so fun got one time dam funny andy:eh,we only shout ahhhhh la,name let the behind ppl shout me:ok trainer:-pull the dk wad thing down- me & andy:AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! trainer:-laugh- behind ppl:-shouting infront the ppl name- then we win sia.. trainer:u all know wad she do anot?-laugh- trainer:she keep shouting ahhhhhhhhh..-laugh- me:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA so fun norh after that boring la.. then blah blah blah.. go jp..blah blah.. tmr firdaus got come to sch lea.. got fun le..^^ buaii~
yesterday was dam funny.. mother tounge lesson.. me:OI,GO SIT OTHER PLACE!! wairen:dw me:I WAN DIVORCE WITH YOU!!(miss wee teach one) -teacher come in- teacher:wad happen? patrick:-point to wairen- patrick:teacher he sit at my place(not his place :x) me & agnes:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA wairen on his MT book write group sia == me:go 3 go sit >>>>!!!! agnes:HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA teacher:you all dw learn,i can dun teach one!!! teacher:-throw the book to andy's table- patrick:-go copy teacher,he throw his book at calar's table- andy:eh teacher,my table lea. laugh die us sia == rest dw say.. i no mood, sry :o
Friday, January 7, 2011 Y 6:58 PM
today morning pe.. 1hr pe.. pe i shout like siao zha bor sia== so xia suay..lawl~ then english.. do wad composition.. all luan luan lai de :x then recess we go buy rubbish,haha then went to class see the light.. we like so childish sia>< haha,we act cute :p then is pw..dam funny teacher call us choose group then need to hv malay ma then we take sabri and firdaus then we keep laughing norh.. agnes:wad group name? sabri:power rangers me:eeeeeee,dw la..how old already? sabri:then telly tubbish(dk how spell) >< me:eeeeee,dw anges:wan wad name?! sabri:i know,i know.star fish we all: hahahahahahahahahahahahaha patrick:-face turn black- laugh die us sia.. then keep on saying patrick then he bu suang then blah blah blah.. agnes:wan wad name? me:dk mr tan:so wad name u all choose? patrick:our group name is,mr desmone tan we all:hahahahahhahahahahahaha then in the end our grounp name is.. Unknow..LAWL?! teacher:then ur other group memebers name lea? agnes:orh sabri:all put nameless me:dw la,siao arh? then blah blah blah firdaus:u see the teacher head so shiny like mirror arh~ me:hahahahahahahahahahahahaha sabri:-change the motto- agnes:eeeeeeee,why u change?where got this motto one? sabri:this is my motto.. me:orhor,u change then ltr u present arh~ sabri:ok lorh teacher:ok,now is sabri's group sabri:eh,patrick u present lea patrick:who agree sabri to present? we all:-all raise up hands- laugh die me norh!!!! sabri cannt say no so he present lorh.. then blah blah.. music lesson that time laugh die sia.. karming:-change le walk towards me & agnes- karming:u got the key anot? me:no,i not monitor karming:then how? me:just throw ur shirt inside the classroom la karming:-throw his t-shirt in- karming:the black colour bag de is ur bag rite? me:ya,why?o.o karming:i throw to ur bag there me & anges:hahahahahahahahahahahhaa we 3 is the last three to go music room sia.. while we walking to the music room.. we keep saying the mmmmmmmmmove away.. hahahahahahahahahahaha me & agnes:kkkkkk ming = karming karming:aaaaaaanes.. me:eeeeeeeeee,sound like wad sia.. then go in music room then sabri go say me me:ssssbri agnes & patrick:hahahahahhahahahahahahahaha laugh die sia.. then blah blah blah.. then CCA opening house.. so boring.. after that go home
Thursday, January 6, 2011 Y 4:10 PM
just came back from jp not long ago._. patrick treat me mac lea >< very good hor?(i know very good la) :p we actually wan go play the dk wad machine de then machine spoil..T.T then while walking to popular i saw something intersting so went into that shop i saw ear-rings so we go buy :x then we go popular find patrick they all.. then we saw the B2ST beatiful video then we went in to the shop and see got wad CD. B2ST 4th mini album $20+ nia!!! today in class.. maths we listen to teacher then recess.. after recess is lady gaga's lesson we nvr listen to her ._. we tok to ourself.. then we say until the house pratice thingy then dk is wad day le then patrick go say house festival :D dam funny norh.. then english,we tok to our self PE,boring la.. SEL lesson teacher let us choose ur place i sit with firdaus sia == same as last yr!@#$%^&* zzzzzzzz?!@#$%^&* sooooooooo,hais nvm!!!! but it is good that,agnes sit infront of me ^^ most -'- thingy is hor, i place wrong place sia == wtf!@#$%
Wednesday, January 5, 2011 Y 7:45 PM
finaaly i'm back.. i'm so tired.. well,today got chinese the chinese teacher si bei guai lan keep tok cock.. make me wanna sleep.. then blah blah blah.. i not going for the stupid camp.. go there also do nth one.. ltr teacher will call my father and ask le. today class was quite boring.. well,tmr change place le. miss wee say de :o hais wish agnes sit infront of me.. dw tok le,i very lazy,bb
Tuesday, January 4, 2011 Y 3:59 PM
today was fun in sch.. i sit beside agnes.. it was temperally tmr maybe wan change place le.. hais i'm so freaking sleepy today at english class almost fell asleep cos he teacher tok rubbish to us== DNT teacher dam funny all scary.. laugh die me sia.. after that go hall dam fking fken irratating norh.. need sit accoring the register number!!== knn,nvm sit like will die liddat..== the ms wee also not good one norh.. zzz..next week still got camp.. wth== so ex sia..$90 thought my parents print money arh?== well i'm in fms.. since he dw on fms, i hv no choice.. i will be very buzy.. it is his choice,i very tired sia.. i wan go be piggy le :x
Monday, January 3, 2011 Y 1:28 PM
i suddenly feel so lonely.. i starting to hate my life and myself.. i hate myself of wad i hv done i wish i die better.. the world would be perfect without me.. well,the old feeling just came back into me it is so hurtful.i remeber the past== i remeber all those stupid things have happen to me.. I HATED KNOWING U U GV ME WORST LIFE AND MY BROTHER CHANGED I HATE HIM.. everyone changed.. i'm tired of living.. knn,u dam fking fken irratating with the word sua. u think u who?! ppl must do wad u wan?! i tell u,dun make me i hate u.ccb abit abit angry.angry then come scold me have u ever think before u speak?! keep on tell me sua.u dun even know i hate ppl saying at word to me when i am angry.knn keep saying it.hardcore. u think u very big?!mai GL la -'-
Y 11:25 AM
woo,tmr sch is reopening le. everyone dosent seems to be happy. i also..hais,everyone dw sch.. but too bad we hv to go. sian,new form teacher.. new classmates.. new class.. NEW TEXTBOOK!!! lawl,random.. i'm so freaking bored.. fb got dam funny thing happen.. the wad,我的最好朋友 laugh die me sia.. dam stupid one norh._. tmr sch le..idk wan bring wad bag i got timetable le.. wad i hate most is, need intro ourself to everyone in the class and teacher.. dam freaking paiseh one norh== well,all the unhappy things in the past is past.it is out of my freaking life. bastard is also out of my life. i hv new friends,no new sisters. cos no one can replace them. u all wanna replace them? GTFO,no way i tell u!! they cant be replace by someone who dosent know wad happen among us.sisters is sisters friends is friends. well,lets get prepared for tmr lessons..hope it wount be horrible.. just hope there wount hv fun.
Name:xiiaoBe
birthday:10.10.97
School:BLSS
Age:19
Love me without fear.
Trust me without wondering.
Love me without restrictions.
Want me without demands.
Accept me for who I am :)
i'm a girl that is 171cm tall
I'm just a girl that has changed and love to make friends with everyone.
i'm irritating at sometimes but u can bear with me then fk off (:
i love the color purple & red :D
i'm a fan of b2st,they rocks ttm! if you dun like them,pls fk off from my blog cos i dun welcome you here.
i'm very sensitive with what people say to me. i'm more sensitive with the person i love.
And the last thing,welcome to my blog :D
0)attached♥ 1)waiting for you to come sg♥
2)have a better life
3)Earn more $$$
4)get into the place i wan
5)find until jobs 6)enjoy my holidays 7)have more new friends
8)stop history from repeating 9)meet up my bitches soon
10)let no one step out of my life agn.
11)no backstabber in my life.
12)everyday got jokes
13)i wanna have my family outing agn..
u see my hand like wad sia..o.o
