yea. i'm back. im not living well..wad am i to you? when you are happy you call me come when you dun need me you push me away.. im living very terrible with a very terrible feeling with me.. I need a heart to heart talk with you badly. I know that it wont happen now, becos you are ignoring me,speechless to me. And i'm running away and avoiding him. morning first one i saw is you. when i dun wanna see until you,you came out. you come out at the time when i wanna give up. when im ready to go you pull me back and ignore me, giving me pain and when i wanna go,you wanna did everything all over agn? i asked myself the whole day today. Am i tired of loving you? Am i ready to give up? Will i be happier without you? Am i able to change the bad habit of disturbing you when I'm bored? The answer is; i not tired of loving you,becos i'm not ready to give up,no ready to live without you,i cant be happier without you,i cant change the bad habit. i tried my best. Am i able to move on with this kind of feelings? i know time heals but what if it dosen't heals? What if my love just grew strong? What if everything changes and my feelings for you just wont change? What am i suppose to do? Remember 2nd February? That's is when we met. We met during PE lesson. That is when we are taking height and weight. you are wearing your shoes and I'm trying to call you go away and not to listen to our weight. And you are so blur and cute at that moment<3 you are not even angry. No to make you mood swing,i said hi to you and you are still blur :D hahahahaha,nth can describe your cuteness. you are the cuties guy i have ever met. 3 Feb we started to call each other. At first thinking that it was fun and i didn't expect myself to fall in love with you. 6 Feb i still treat it as a joke and i started to ask ppl for your number and wanna disturb you. And i didt get your number and started to sms you and disturb you. At first you are so fed up and when you know it was me you started you laugh :) And you told me that you will message me the next day and we did message each other the next day <3 Because it was F&N and becos it was in the morning I'm bored and i was about to fall asleep so i smsed you and just becos of replying my message your phone almost go confiscated. You call me crazy girl for no reason. and i have no idea why you called me that -.- You gave me excuse said that you are bored even you are with your friend.i know you are not,you are just trying to sms me. And your mood suddenly changed at nite and i didnt disturb you that nite. The next day becos of worrying about you,i didnt sleep well at nite and i sleep during class. You sms me and call me to wake up. That moment i was really angry becos i going to fall asleep and someone message me. But i saw your message i smiled. Try my best to keep myself awake. And just becos of that i caught you eating sweets in class and i called you not to throw sweet wrapper on the floor and you said you wont. And i saw sweet wrapper on the floor and i said to you " see got wrapper" and you smile back at me and said "no i throw one" then someone throw all the sweet wrapper on the floor and called me to be his maid and you laughed at me. you know how angry am i? after sch i treat nth has happen but im still angry and you still able to laugh. yea, you are a cheerful and daring prince. That's why i love you. i made your mood swing after that. And im really really sry about it. I still can remember how i felt that nite. I'm really lost that nite. Baby,I'm really sry about that :( Tried to pull myself up in the morning to see your pretty face,see your smile. But wad i saw was a moody face. I called you to smile and you did :) After seeing your smile I'm too relax and started to feel sleepy and i went to sleep agn and you message me not to sleep agn :) And that's when we sms until midnite and i dun wanna leave my phone. you called me to go to your house and i said i dun wanna go becos i'm lazy to go out. Morning you are sooo sleepy and it is my turn to take my revenge >:) i smmed you and hahahahaha,you woke up :P And it was my first time staying back in sch just to see a guy; that was you, the only one in my life. Next day i wanted to disturb you but you are far away :0 so i gave up. And i said "bored" this word out and i got my punishment. And that day i went home,my house temper i no very good and i got a bad feeling. you cherr me up by saying thing will goes wrong. you chat with me and make me smile and i know that everything i gonna be alright. And i called you at nite :) Then night i cant go sleep and remember? you are the one who free me. you are the one who called me to go and sleep. Next day you are trying to sleep and we called you. And you are not angry at all. You agree to let me go swimming with that crazy patrick -.- and i was really really angry. Then Nvm. you went crazy with him. you came to my house here. It was the first and last time bah? hais.. i called you and i ask you " where are you?" you answer "idk" me "your there got wad?" you " my here got nothing" <-- purposely? then you came here and smoke. 13 feb,you didnt message me. i remember what you said "idk what to reply" 14 feb i disturb you becos it was valentine's day. television was your girlfriend that day (: And that nite i went to your house playground. It was cold down there. Really really cold down there. patirck's portable charger was missing. You are sleepy. I kept quite over there listening to song over and over agn. looking at you; you look so tired..Your eyes are so red. You was caught to go cut hair and you didnt cut your hair you when there to walk around. hahahaha! bad boy. That day someone wanted to throw your bag down and i told you and you tell me you dun care. hahahahahahaha! What if you see until your bag drop down from the sky? you still dun care? :) Next day is when i make up my mind. PE lesson you came to me and asked me for my paper and i gave it to you. And you wrote "_____ is handsome" <-- not writting the name down. So thick skin arh! And remember the quarrel between the two of us? hahahaha!! it was funny :) i told you "saranghae" that day and i really really mean it. you may think i was joking at that time, but im serious. 21 feb everything changed, we like become closer to each other. becos of the old folks home? you send me "baby,i love you" you said that it was a dare but you kept sending me over and over agn. At nite you asked me who is that guy i like and i say i dun wanna say. The next day you i got my punishment becos i said that word and i need to be punish and i really shouted "_____ is handsome" omg sia -.- after sch you told me that girl is me and i was very happy and you said you dun wanna be in a relationship. The next day you hit my hair for no reason :@ evil. The next day i stay back in sch as normal just to see you :D But you look moody that day. remember? i smsed you to smile and not to be moody :) Things goes wrong the Next monday, you look scary that day T^T really scary. you scolded me and said that im noisy. And you stared at me like I'm in the wrong? As if you hate me alot. hais.. The next day you scolded someone for no reason. why are you so angry and fed up? why? T^T You said you miss me the next day on fb. <-- I'm still wondering is it me.. i was happy when i saw that,really happy :) 2 march you are so childish,teach is already very angry and you went up to the stage and jump! act cute >< <-- is very cute la. jump then nvm,saw teacher's face black black then come down and smile at me. hahahahahaha!! everything bad happen all over agn on the 5 march.. sch reopen and we are still happy with each other but now.. has your feelings towards me has fated? have you got tired of me? Are you speechless towards me like wad you said in the past? I really still cant imagine what am i gonna be when i lose you. Even as a friend i also dun wanna lose you. But, there's no other choice rite now :( Pls,i beg you. just let me see your smile once over again. Just let me see that you are happy every single day. Hear you laughter everyday. That's what i'm asking for. Today is the last message i'm sending to you; Baby,i love you(:

I'm back..ps no time post I'm in Malaysia rite now.. Very tired but can't fall asleep -.- btw,happy white valentine ^^ guess wad? I know him for 1 month and 12 days.. Im missing him badly.. Every time I'm not happy you wasn't here.. Everytime I'm really really sad over something,you just pop out in my dreams and cheer me up..I know a lot of ppl find it wired that I fall in love for you..my cousin also find it wired.. They dun believe that I'm not in a relationship.. Everyone thinks that I'm in a relationship..to say the truth I remember everything about you clearly. When I'm up sad I thinks about our cuteness to cheer myself up. I'm afraid to lose you.even as friend. I wanna stay by your side. Seeing your smile,hearing your voice and your laugher. I wanna see you everyday day,hour,min,sec.. I dun wanna lose you.. Just dun wan to. I may not know what will happen next, but all I know is I wanna be by your side until the day you dun wan me to be by your side I will leave..but I promise I will be back if you needs me. Yea,I dream until you yesterday nite. You are just being sweet inside there :) remember how we met each other? We met during the pe lesson. You looks so blur and cute ^^ hahaha,got disturb by me and dun know how to react.. Day by day..day after day.. You guys started to play by calling "baby" but what ends up with? I calling you baby and you call me back baby. After that? You came to my house here late at night for no reasons.. I went to your house there for no reasons too.. You learnt what I have used o scold ppl. One sentence I have said and you leant it makes you so happy.. You are a cheerful boy. But my one sentence can make your mood change totally.. I remember that time, I really makes you moody and I can't fall asleep that nite.. Not only that nite is the whole week.. I felt really guilty.. Staring at me in class and get caught by me.. I stares at you during Chem test and you wink back at me. Our relationship is just friend. You tell others ppl wont believe. I love you,miss you. Other ppl know im in love.they still thinks that I have a boyfriend.i just dk how to say.. Just wanna know what will happen next after the school holidays.. Hopes nth bad happens..

OKAY IM BACK! bored die already la..keep playing diamond dash like wad sia.. :x cos im too bored~.~ and anna is replying me late at fb :< on skype with chee xian now ^^ he say he is gonna help wo jail break tmr if cant then wed jail break agn.. ^^ like that good le lorh :D ok la,today morning have assembly and i have cut my front hair and hehe i got my contact lens :DD fk the sch la..so late then got the fan then dw on somemore..wad i poor sch~.~ then go MT class..poker card kanna confiscate liao..he not happy with me say la..gan! then he call my complete the sentence dude,you think my chinese so good? + im not awake in the freaking hell morning! :@ scold scold scold..you dw teach then dun teach la no one call you to teach..you think ppl like you? -.- tok so much.. zhi qin:cann you keep quite for 1sec,you very noisy lea. teacher:you then keep quite la,you so noisy. zhi qin;better than you la. hahahahahahahahahaha!! trolled :P then go back class for english then teacher change to maths :o dam tired then wanna sleep de then suddenly it rain then cold like wad sia..lucky no thunder..or esle gg.com~.~ then teacher let us rest awhile then continue her lesson :o then recess go down they eat i play phone :P then chem mr zui step one fierce nia -.- step until like wad..then go hall for assembly then patrick kanna call to stand up becos we keep make him..then the lao he ma go say headache then she touch her stomach then stomach pain touch her head..wth sia..then luman,firdaus,raushan and patrick go laugh at her..hahahahaha..failure~.~

First time posting blog at JB ^^ ps no com and Thursday I got nth to post so..heheh..yesterday forgotten to post >< yesterday dam fun and solihin is Sam freaking cute in class ^^morning having f&n class then boring cos doing work then do finish le at there play poker cards >< then after that is SS I dam tired sia ;o then I keep sleep on Agnes's lap ;x then maths class do finish work le at there play camer hehehe!!!i capture until his face ^^ cute arh :p then go down for recess :p then go back class then the class go crazy sia >< cos the mervin at the stage there got throw the book then all paper fly out..then I at there sleeping then heard until Kai chin at 3-1 quarreling with jorden dam loud at first I thought is Yu Xuan and babu sia :x cos the sound sound alike :x then I down see then come up..then teacher come in face black black becos of those paper in the floor :o then teacher very pek chek liao ma then solihin still go up the stage and jump..HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Then he turn and see until teacher's face black black then he still can laugh sia..hahahaha,cute la! Then he is looking at me and laugh becos he saw me laughing at him :x then keep take photo and play poker cards lorh..cos mr Seow nvr come ma ^^ I will continue taking photo until holiday :p ok la..now need to go out soon :o just come here and tell you guys I'm missing him and he is very cute ^^ bye bye. Love him<3