seriously, why you always dk what i want? everything happen and happen agn and agn. you always nvr failed to understand. why? am i really that hard to understand? i was wondering, do you really understand me after so long? my style, the way i react, what i always do, how weak am i, and stuffs. or is it like what they say, i nvr change is just that you nvr take the effort to get to know me. look, after so long i know you so well. what about your understanding of me to you? when shi ting and anna went to look for jobs with out me, i told you; no one cares about me, im just nth. and you told me im something to you. but when you say your friend is coming to find job with us, i didnt reply you becos i was talking on the phone. and without saying a single word about how i feel, shi ting even know that i dun wan her to come. not to reject her from coming, i keep quiet. and you say you are meeting her in the morning . and during the afternoon, becos she say she wanna go to work in that job, without asking me i wanna work there anot and you walked in. becos i didnt go in and say idw to work at there its my fault. alright is my fault.. what about what you have told me that day? working with ME. now you are telling me you gonna work with her cos you dun wanna dump her alone, so i gave in. becos you say she was ALONE. your friend is ALONE. so i really decided to gv in by saying my friends were working there and i will be fine WITHOUT you. and you can happily reply me; you dun fall for them can alr. im really really really disappointed. becos you dw your friend to be alone you can dump your gf. which guy out there will dump his gf alone? i seriously dun get it.. i know by saying this im being selfish. i will be fine without you in this job. i will be fine. and im really not fine. i hate to lie to myself but i really had enough of this. i should just wake up from my own world. this is reality, no on will care about you no matter what, if you really need to gv in what is your and it hurts you so much, then just gv in and walk alone. i can walk this through by myself. i no need anyone's help. no matter how weak am i,i can get it through by myself. just do whateva you wan. becos i always wont get what i wan, so what if i got it? it will still turn out to be others. others can always take over my place that easily. i will nvr be that important to anyone else. sometimes ppl can just hurt me directly without caring how i feel. what can i do is give in what i have to cheer others up. in order not to let others think that im selfish or dun care about their feeling. they can even hate you when you do all these stuffs.. no matter how much you gv in, once you did wrong something, you are a bad person. this world is really unfair. you cant even argue back becos you will nvr win no matter what. even if you explain, they will take that as an excuse and push all the blame on you. so no point. i have learn a hard way to live my life.. no point.. no point..