Tuesday, March 27, 2012 Y 7:09 PM

yea. i'm back. im not living well..wad am i to you? when you are happy you call me come when you dun need me you push me away.. im living very terrible with a very terrible feeling with me.. I need a heart to heart talk with you badly. I know that it wont happen now, becos you are ignoring me,speechless to me. And i'm running away and avoiding him. morning first one i saw is you. when i dun wanna see until you,you came out. you come out at the time when i wanna give up. when im ready to go you pull me back and ignore me, giving me pain and when i wanna go,you wanna did everything all over agn? i asked myself the whole day today. Am i tired of loving you? Am i ready to give up? Will i be happier without you? Am i able to change the bad habit of disturbing you when I'm bored? The answer is; i not tired of loving you,becos i'm not ready to give up,no ready to live without you,i cant be happier without you,i cant change the bad habit. i tried my best. Am i able to move on with this kind of feelings? i know time heals but what if it dosen't heals? What if my love just grew strong? What if everything changes and my feelings for you just wont change? What am i suppose to do? Remember 2nd February? That's is when we met. We met during PE lesson. That is when we are taking height and weight. you are wearing your shoes and I'm trying to call you go away and not to listen to our weight. And you are so blur and cute at that moment<3 you are not even angry. No to make you mood swing,i said hi to you and you are still blur :D hahahahaha,nth can describe your cuteness. you are the cuties guy i have ever met. 3 Feb we started to call each other. At first thinking that it was fun and i didn't expect myself to fall in love with you. 6 Feb i still treat it as a joke and i started to ask ppl for your number and wanna disturb you. And i didt get your number and started to sms you and disturb you. At first you are so fed up and when you know it was me you started you laugh :) And you told me that you will message me the next day and we did message each other the next day <3 Because it was F&N and becos it was in the morning I'm bored and i was about to fall asleep so i smsed you and just becos of replying my message your phone almost go confiscated. You call me crazy girl for no reason. and i have no idea why you called me that -.- You gave me excuse said that you are bored even you are with your friend.i know you are not,you are just trying to sms me. And your mood suddenly changed at nite and i didnt disturb you that nite. The next day becos of worrying about you,i didnt sleep well at nite and i sleep during class. You sms me and call me to wake up. That moment i was really angry becos i going to fall asleep and someone message me. But i saw your message i smiled. Try my best to keep myself awake. And just becos of that i caught you eating sweets in class and i called you not to throw sweet wrapper on the floor and you said you wont. And i saw sweet wrapper on the floor and i said to you " see got wrapper" and you smile back at me and said "no i throw one" then someone throw all the sweet wrapper on the floor and called me to be his maid and you laughed at me. you know how angry am i? after sch i treat nth has happen but im still angry and you still able to laugh. yea, you are a cheerful and daring prince. That's why i love you. i made your mood swing after that. And im really really sry about it. I still can remember how i felt that nite. I'm really lost that nite. Baby,I'm really sry about that :( Tried to pull myself up in the morning to see your pretty face,see your smile. But wad i saw was a moody face. I called you to smile and you did :) After seeing your smile I'm too relax and started to feel sleepy and i went to sleep agn and you message me not to sleep agn :) And that's when we sms until midnite and i dun wanna leave my phone. you called me to go to your house and i said i dun wanna go becos i'm lazy to go out. Morning you are sooo sleepy and it is my turn to take my revenge >:) i smmed you and hahahahaha,you woke up :P And it was my first time staying back in sch just to see a guy; that was you, the only one in my life. Next day i wanted to disturb you but you are far away :0 so i gave up. And i said "bored" this word out and i got my punishment. And that day i went home,my house temper i no very good and i got a bad feeling. you cherr me up by saying thing will goes wrong. you chat with me and make me smile and i know that everything i gonna be alright. And i called you at nite :) Then night i cant go sleep and remember? you are the one who free me. you are the one who called me to go and sleep. Next day you are trying to sleep and we called you. And you are not angry at all. You agree to let me go swimming with that crazy patrick -.- and i was really really angry. Then Nvm. you went crazy with him. you came to my house here. It was the first and last time bah? hais.. i called you and i ask you " where are you?" you answer "idk" me "your there got wad?" you " my here got nothing" <-- purposely? then you came here and smoke. 13 feb,you didnt message me. i remember what you said "idk what to reply" 14 feb i disturb you becos it was valentine's day. television was your girlfriend that day (: And that nite i went to your house playground. It was cold down there. Really really cold down there. patirck's portable charger was missing. You are sleepy. I kept quite over there listening to song over and over agn. looking at you; you look so tired..Your eyes are so red. You was caught to go cut hair and you didnt cut your hair you when there to walk around. hahahaha! bad boy. That day someone wanted to throw your bag down and i told you and you tell me you dun care. hahahahahahaha! What if you see until your bag drop down from the sky? you still dun care? :) Next day is when i make up my mind. PE lesson you came to me and asked me for my paper and i gave it to you. And you wrote "_____ is handsome" <-- not writting the name down. So thick skin arh! And remember the quarrel between the two of us? hahahaha!! it was funny :) i told you "saranghae" that day and i really really mean it. you may think i was joking at that time, but im serious. 21 feb everything changed, we like become closer to each other. becos of the old folks home? you send me "baby,i love you" you said that it was a dare but you kept sending me over and over agn. At nite you asked me who is that guy i like and i say i dun wanna say. The next day you i got my punishment becos i said that word and i need to be punish and i really shouted "_____ is handsome" omg sia -.- after sch you told me that girl is me and i was very happy and you said you dun wanna be in a relationship. The next day you hit my hair for no reason :@ evil. The next day i stay back in sch as normal just to see you :D But you look moody that day. remember? i smsed you to smile and not to be moody :) Things goes wrong the Next monday, you look scary that day T^T really scary. you scolded me and said that im noisy. And you stared at me like I'm in the wrong? As if you hate me alot. hais.. The next day you scolded someone for no reason. why are you so angry and fed up? why? T^T You said you miss me the next day on fb. <-- I'm still wondering is it me.. i was happy when i saw that,really happy :) 2 march you are so childish,teach is already very angry and you went up to the stage and jump! act cute >< <-- is very cute la. jump then nvm,saw teacher's face black black then come down and smile at me. hahahahahaha!! everything bad happen all over agn on the 5 march.. sch reopen and we are still happy with each other but now.. has your feelings towards me has fated? have you got tired of me? Are you speechless towards me like wad you said in the past? I really still cant imagine what am i gonna be when i lose you. Even as a friend i also dun wanna lose you. But, there's no other choice rite now :( Pls,i beg you. just let me see your smile once over again. Just let me see that you are happy every single day. Hear you laughter everyday. That's what i'm asking for. Today is the last message i'm sending to you; Baby,i love you(:

That Girl♥

Name:xiiaoBe
birthday:10.10.97
School:BLSS
Age:19
Love me without fear.
Trust me without wondering.
Love me without restrictions.
Want me without demands.
Accept me for who I am :)
i'm a girl that is 171cm tall
I'm just a girl that has changed and love to make friends with everyone.
i'm irritating at sometimes but u can bear with me then fk off (:
i love the color purple & red :D
i'm a fan of b2st,they rocks ttm! if you dun like them,pls fk off from my blog cos i dun welcome you here.
i'm very sensitive with what people say to me. i'm more sensitive with the person i love.
And the last thing,welcome to my blog :D

Wishlist♥,

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0)~~attached♥~~
1)waiting for you to come sg♥
2)have a better life
3)Earn more $$$
4)get into the place i wan
5)~~find until jobs~~
6)~~enjoy my holidays~~
7)have more new friends
8)~~stop history from repeating~~
9)meet up my bitches soon
10)let no one step out of my life agn.
11)no backstabber in my life.
12)everyday got jokes
13)~~i wanna have my family outing agn..~~

Precious♥

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♥♥♥
autum(christina),BFF,lao gong
dark,friend
jason,gan kor
chen wei,maple di
jessy,maple jie,gan jie
jian cheng,mei fu,close friend
stanley,kor ^-^
ribbon,BFF,twins
Ross,close friend 0.0
Soul,close friend ><
celine koh, stead♥♥♥

MPLE PRIVATE SEVER^^

iJASONx3,GP
genhex,kor
iArena,kor
stuhannelee,di
xspacex,er zi
x3iBabyJie,kor
XiaoHero/XiaoLepPer,kor
jaffar,kor
YourMumFly,kor
kisame,di
omgitsrick,er zi
ccookiiee,jie
iTINAx3,jie
sentosa,xi fu
Avaricious,Ah Ma
toopid,mummy
Niib,mei
Shootuebutt,di
Tiifany,close friend
Windx3,close friend
Rampage,kor

~BLGPS
1/7,2/7,3/3,4/1,5/2,6/4♥

♥♥♥
wendy,gan jie
pearlyn,gan jie
lynette,gan mei
li min,gan mei
meiling,friend
hazel,gan jie,sister,lao gong,tuition mate♥
wanjing,best friend,sister,tution mate♥
wan yi,close friend,sister♥
hebe,friend
sok hoon,sister,gan jie
wen ting,friend
kai xin,sister,close friend
agnes,gan jie,sister,rabbit,close friend♥
wanyi,best friend,sister♥
doris,gan jie,sister♥
christine,gan mummy,sister,close friend
lu ying,gan jie,sister
sarah chua,gan jie,sister
sarah tan,black dog,sister
jamie,friend
g hui min,friend
choo wei lin,gan jie
cek ning,friend
zhi yu,friend
wen ya,gan jie,sister
pei shi,gan mei
nuttiluk,gan mei
Macabelle,firend
ye xin,gan jie,Avatar,close friend
isnina,gan jie

★★★
kevin lam,gan kor,brother,under wear
kevin lee,friend
danial,BEST gan kor,da nui,brother
effendy,gan kor
cheng xuan,gan kor,monkey
han lun,gan kor
valent,gan kor,valentai day
nicholas,gan di
mah chi leong,close friend,joker,ma chi long
poh teck,gan daddy,brother
ken lee,friend,brother,auntie lucy
ken NG,firend
zhong jun,friend,brother
yao huang,gan kor,brother,yellow medician
shi jie,gan kor,brother,act freanch kia
lin jia xin,friend
sin kai,gan kor,brother
tenggui,2nd gan daddy,teddy bear
choon wee,gan kor,brother
choon wei,friend,brother
yong yuan,friend,brother
shih gee,friend,gee la
goh jun hui,friend
calvin leong,gan kor,banboo stick,close friend
lee jun wei,percious gan di
eddy,bei ji xiong,dog
patrick,gan di,brother
raytheon,friend,ji dong
zhi wei,friend,monk
chun hao,friend
jian yuan,friend
hao yang,friend
wee keat,gan son,alien head

BLSS

1NA2

CLARA, friend,sister
JUGWINDER,friend,sister
MING YING,friend,sister,CB ying
LIN YING,friend,sister
SWRNA,friend
JIA QI,ah ma,sister
LIYANA,sister,friend
HIDAYAH,sister,friend
YU XUAN,sister,friend,gan jie
SHARENY,firend
SHARIFFAH,friend
NURMAISARAH,friend
su,friend,sister,gan jie
THASHAINI,friend,sister
joey,friend,sister,gan mei
AHMAD,friend
AZMIRUL,brother,gan kor,friend
BRENDON,friend
FADHLAN,friend
GENG HONG,friend,brother,bird bird,gan kor,dog
WEI XIANG,friend
IVAN,friend
FIRDAUS,gan kor,brother,alien,ah aus
SHAREZZA,friend
JUN ERN,gan kor,brother
JIA CHING,friend
KAI SHENG,gan kor,short monster,brother
KEAN ZHU,friend, pumpkin zhu,fat lala
ZHONG YING,friend,housefly
ALFIAN,friend
SABRI,gan kor,brother,sa bi gou,kola bear
JING WANG,friend
ZI ZHAO,friend
TIMOTHY,friend
Antonio,friend,ants
kar ming,gan kor,karming airong bieber,brother,coming

2NA3(zoo♥)

Yi Xuan,babu,friend,joker
Khairuddin,friend,panda
raushan,daddy,tiger :D
andy,xiao bai,kor,brother
Saiyidah,friend
wairen,friend
charissa,sister,friend
anna,sister,friend
ali,alibaba,friend
chinkeong,friend
yao jie,friend

3NA3~ & 4NA3

Sarimah,friend
Manickam,friend
Gayathri,friend :D
Adrian,friend,xiao bai 1
Waznah,friend
chee xian,friend
solihin,friend,babe
zhi qin,friend
Ahmad Syazrie,friend,betie
Thanush,friend
mervin,friend,xiao bai 2
shi ting,friend,sister
aman,friend
khrl,friend

BLSS seniors
veronica
sandra
suping
nicole
hui ning
★tell me if i left u out...
--ai rong—

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