Friday, February 17, 2012 Y 8:16 PM
im not in the freaking mood since yesterday nite! i know i mean nth to you.i mean nth to everyone in this fking whole wide world. no one cares wad happen to me expect one.the only one.my phone is offed in the morning becos im not in mood..early in the morning,the sky are dark,very very dark..cos it's gonna to rain,but it didnt. when i reached sch,the sky is in purple colour <3 shi ting and i went up to class and the door is locked -.- so i just sit down at the staircase and listen to song..my heart is so complicate at that time..i cant do anything to it,but just to sit down there quietly and think about what is happening..then the sch bell rings..everyone is coming up,agnes came up also..but the way she come up is..at first me;*look at the staircase-saw a girl with bangs- maybe is express class girl* shi ting;*look at staircase* me;*it dosent seems rite,agnes hasnt come up..* -look carefully- agnes;*walk like dk wad body keep moving from left to right* me;*wth?! i cant believe that is agnes* agnes;*smile* me;*wth?! is u arh?! agnes;ya?o.o shi ting;omg,i thought is express girl.. me;i also but i cant believe agnes walk in that way.. agnes;wad way? me;the way u walk up the staricase.. the i told her wad happen and she laugh like a crazy girl.. then morning assembly.. me;*look around the class*-wtf?! wad has happen to our class?- after assembly. me;eh,do u see something wired? agnes;wad thing? me;look at the boys hair. agnes;*look around* ohh.. then F&N do corrections then take a laptop then go in fb..then SS at first thought teacher neh come..but he got come -.- he let us watch the mv dam freaking lame and boring..i almost fall asleep.. then end le teacher;left 20min,u can do anything BUT u cannot sleep. me;-wtf?!- fine lorh..dun sleep then dun sleep..then maths my chris gv me and agnes chocolates..then i laugh like sia man!!! at first we go into the class.. zhi qing;eh,gv one larh. agnes;*look at him* mervin;eh,me and ur brother very close lea,gv one la. agnes;*give him* then dk she still gv hu..then no more le ma..then they see until i got. mervin;eh,airong.me and ur brother very close lea. me;sry,i have no brother. adrian;eh,airong. me and ur sister very close lea. me;sry,i have no sister. jun ern;eh,me and jason very close lea. me;me and him not close le. hahahahahahahaha >< me;*gv jun ern one* adrian and zhi qing;eh,gv lea. me;*take one gv agnes* agnes;gv hu? me;ur choice lorh.. agnes;*gv it to adrian* then agnes watch her anime then i nth to do so go find shi ting..then sit beside her..dam funny one norh..they playing poker ma. me; adrian confirm get lousy card one.. then when everyone got the card,mervin get all the 2. they the super no happy so adrian,jun ern and andy go combine their cards together then mervin lose..hahahahahahahahahaha!!! then solihin they all see until le wan join then they come half way only,teacher come and confiscate all..wth sia..then boring lorh sit down and listen to songs.. then i keep beating solihin's hand..solihin;ur hand not pain meh? me;no. Am i suppose to feel pain when my heart is numb? then i keep hitting and hitting until he take away his hands.. my feelings is very very complicate at that time.. si i asked andy to play slapping.. my hand keep kanna slap by him becos i keep losing.. then jun ern come and say wan play with me.. i gv him 2slap on his hands,his hand already very very red and he dun wanna play anymore..and my hand is also very red..i cant play blood so i play the pain.. then recess then english teacher let us watch the ghost show..i at there listen to songs and keep lying on the table..then sel teacher come in dam freaking funny.. we need to check the subject we are taking then must sign ma.. then he need call the name then we go sign.. teacher;solihin! solihin! solihin! *looking at where solihin's sit* but solihin is infront of him!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! solihin;*look at teacher* teacher;*turn and look infront of him* eh,u are here?i thought u sitting at there sia.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! then he did it agn at shaul.. then he did it agn at zhong yin and zhong ying is just sitting infront of him..wa,i laugh like sia.. then solihin write dk wad letter then gv teacher.. teacher;solihin,i dun need your love letter,take it back. LOLS?! then the ahmad keep dancing sia..i keep laughing then mervin also..dam freaking funny..then after sch i went out and i injured my legs..i called some people..but no one come..i bleed so badly and trying to ask for help and no one cares expect for agnes.. i feel no pain becos it was too numb.. and the blood keep bleeding and bleeding non-stop..it bleed for 4+hrs non-stop -.-
My dearest heart,stop crying. you should know it is useless..i can tell you that he doesn't love you..you shouldn't have fall in love with him in the first place. you shouldn't call him when u are injured..you shouldn't message him in the first place..you shouldn't do those things that you shouldn't have do..you cant blame me for wad you have did..you are the one who did those things..and u are crying so badly inside me? i cant stop you from crying inside me becos i know u are too complicated inside me..i have tired to cry aloud but no tears are out..i didn't cut my hand becos i know it wount help..i can do nth rite now to stop wad is happening..you have find out everything today and u just cant stop crying..i cant do anything..i'm too tired to smile or to say a word to you,boy. what i can say is,im really really tired. once i have enough,i shall move on. it is impossible between us..the moment I keep quiet and stop talking or disturbing you will be end or the feelings for u have grown deeper..
