Monday, February 20, 2012 Y 8:30 PM
finally got the time to post >< ok i have less readers now :( everyone ran away,chey. is i didnt blog for too long :o hmm let see what has happen today -.- morning went to sch already moody just because im still having complicated feelings and thinking..reached sch bell ring..wth sia..i not that late rite..ya,im not that late is the bell ring early! -.- then go up to hall agnes is still not here..my face is totally black i also dk why -.- raushan;airong,why not happy? me:*shake head* raushan;*look other place* me;*keep quite* awhile later.. raushan;airong,what happen? me;*shake head* raushan;shiting,what happen to her? shiting;idk.. raushan;is it agnes never come? me;*look at the back* agnes;*walking here* me;*turn back* agnes;*come here and sit down* raushan;agnes,what happen to her? agnes;*look at me* me;*look at her* agnes;bad mood bah.. me;*look other place* then morning assembly finish MT teacher go through the workbook and im thinking about you badly..T.T and i dun dare to message you.. then MT finish go back class for english..fk it la!!! need go out read the passage!!! -.- lucky im not up.. scarily tmr i need read -.- idw read la! hais..then maths do question until wan go crazy -.- why i always wanted to write 1997 this year?hais forget it.. then recess im not eating agn and i go toilet before i go canteen and shi ting saw my hand.. got caught..my parents didn't even notice and my friends already noticed it..then go back class for chemistry..i cant even see wat teacher show on the screen becos i didnt wear contacts..hais..so at there listen to song and mr zui come take away the ear piece and my mp4 hanging over there and he at there ouh.. me;*ignore him* agnes;*looking at him* mr zui;*gv me back the mp4* listen to it after the class.. then i mai care him cos i really really tired -.- then finish his class go do ic dam wad de nor~~~ i go cut queue then quite fast then do finish go home..
i have tried my best not to be irritating for today :) if i really did it,what will happen? i have no idea yet..but you seems to be happy and nothing happen to you today..you are a happy guy..ya,you are one..i remember i was once a happy girl..but after those pain they have given to me,i changed..everything changed in me..no more being happy..started to play with blood to control my temper..if i didnt cut myself,i know that i cant control my freaking temper towards ppl..those guys who said me today is lucky my temper wasnt that bad for today becos i have cut myself on the Saturday..yes,i love him but i really dk why i really cant take it when i see until him..i feel like crying when i see until him..becos it tells me that we cant be together.we are just friends.im born in this way and you just treat me as your friend and nth else..what can i say? i tried to change this few days,i believe i can change into a better person..the real me..the real smile that i use to have.no more pain and tears and no more playing of blood to control my feelings..one day i will be able to stand up by myself and not you pulling me up like wad u always helped me to stand up.i can stand up by myself one day,i will be strong and not become weaker and weaker..
